sometimes I just want to cry, scream, throw everything out of me and live my life in such drama. this thought happens only when I couldn't handle these things all by myself. I can't write, I'm not good at it. I need somebody to talk and hear feedback from them but in the other hand I know they don't care, they don't want to know, they don't need me to explain more. they won't. I cry a lot with no tissue beside me because I wasn't planning it to be happen. I don't want it because I hate myself crying, I hate myself drown in my own thought but dear, we're gonna get through this together, right?